Tuesday, May 6, 2014

While I'm Waiting



I love it when certain songs at key times in my life really resonate with what I am enduring.  It plays, I listen and say in my heart, "yea that's how I feel."  While I'm Waiting is the song for my heart and soul right now.

I am waiting,
I am waiting on you Lord
And I am Hopeful
(standing on Hope!)

I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
(so painful like I've never known)
But patiently, I will wait.

I will move ahead, bold and confident
(In Your strength, I will move ahead)
Taking every step in obedience
(it's the way I can move ahead)
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
(I want to serve You, Lord)
While I'm waiting
I will worship
(Everyday, I will worship and adore You)

While I'm waiting
I will not faint
(You, O Lord, will give me strength I need)
I'll be running the race
(Provide me with unending courage!)
Even while I wait
(It will all be worth it!)

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
(My obedience gives me peace)
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
(Only You give me the ability to wait)
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
(You have made it clear to me, to wait)

I will serve You while I'm waiting
(You provide me with fortitude I need)
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will SERVE You while I'm waiting
I will WORSHIP while I'm waiting
I WILL SERVE YOU WHILE I'M WAITING

I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord


Friday, April 18, 2014

Like Peter


To me, it's the most wonderful time of the year!  The Spring season is a season of newness all around in Father's creation.  It's a celebration of the winter being behind me and looking forward to the trees and flowers blooming and the season of Easter and hope.  As I have been reading and thinking about the events that led up to The Son's crucifixion, I've decided to look at Peter with more focus.

We all know Peter's story, denying his Friend three times before the rooster crowed.  I used to think, how could he do that?  How could he betray the One he followed?   How could he deny his friend, the one that he claimed over and over again to love.  As I've grown older, I realize that I probably would've done the same.  It would have been my first response, I'm sure.  If I think about it, when I am fearful and don't think about what I am going to say it's usually something that I'll regret.  He was human and that's probably what happened, since he was fearful.  

Just like Peter, we live in those few moments between the rooster's first crow..worldliness, getting by, provision, familiarity...and the second crow of shame, realization, loss, despair and weeping.  After the first crow, it's an opportunity to turn around and change my course.  But after the second crow, well that one is the realization of truth and remorse usually follows.

I can learn a lot from Peter, but what I am learning this season is that I don't want to continue with the shame, realization, loss, despair and weeping as much as in my past.  I want to gain wisdom from this story.  I want to be prepared and less fearful, so that I will be well equipped when the second crow comes.  I want to remember and be encouraged that 106 times the word, wait, is used in The Word, for perfect reason.  I want to wait and then respond, so I can hang my head in shame...less.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Living in Beijing


Today, before class, we invited our neighbors for lunch.  Our neighbors are a German teacher who has a Chinese wife and a young lady from Spain.  As we enjoyed lunch and conversation together, it dawned on me that this is a benefit of living here.  We get to share meals with foreigners from other countries and share about our culture and our experiences here in China.  So I think I will share with you, first, the positives of living here for this season.  

Most Chinese people like foreigners, especially if you are kind and respectful to them.  Many of them think to do little extras for us and it makes us smile.  Just yesterday, Glenn and I went to a dining hall on campus to have lunch after class. We were sitting there eating lunch and a lady worker there saw that we were eating a rice dish with chopsticks and went and got us each a spoon.  When we go into our market on campus to our vegetable and fruit people, they love to throw in little freebies for us to enjoy.  Right now it seems to be cherry tomatoes.

Rather than bore you with all the details, I will just list some other benefits and if you have questions you can email me.  Cheap public transportation that includes buses galore, big subway system and cheap taxis.  Lots of vegetables and fruits everywhere.  Students always encouraging us that we should take a nap everyday.  Impromptu visits when someone wants to see you.  A culture that is so relational. Lots of good food available.  Hot pot. Lots of free tea to be had. Respectful students with lots of smiling faces.  Cheap cell phone plans.  Chinese love to bring fruit as a gift, just this week we were given watermelon and a bag of cherry tomatoes.  Two places on either side of our campus to get good coffee.  Seven very cheap dining halls and five restaurants right on campus.  Most students like to play badminton.  And best of all:  talking of the son is as easy as discussing the weather :)

Next time I'll share some, not so positive things, cause we know everywhere has them!  


Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Joy Restored

It's been four months since I've been on this blog, and it's not that I didn't have anything to write,  but I didn't know what to write.   With so many things swirling around in my head, I just couldn't get them to the keyboard, maybe that's why it's called, "writer's block."  The fact is that I have been "in school" with the Father learning some pretty intense lessons these previous months and I have felt my mind was swimming and that's all it could do.  Too tired, too mentally exhausted, too wiped out after all the "swimming" brain activity, and not enough energy left to sit and write.  I am finally at peace now, my mind is at rest and my joy is restored.

Since coming to Beijing, I have been stretched beyond anything I expected!  It's been so hard and so painful.  But I have been privileged to know my Father in ways that I don't think I would've otherwise.  He has given me abundant strength and sustained me in the days that all I could do was go through the motions.  He has forgiven me, when in the beginning months I desired to be disobedient to His calling for me.  He has used me, even in my weaknesses.  He has healed me of pain and much grieving.  He has given me a new song.  Best of all He is so much more to me.  I trust Him in such a deeper way and my love for Him is newer!  I am thankful for what the Father has brought me through, because I am different.  I am more of who He has designed me to be.

Looking back, Father's showed me how I have had tendencies related to Lot's wife, Jeremiah the prophet and Job. I never thought of relating to any of these people, especially Lot's wife, until Father showed me that in one way I was doing exactly what she did that turned her into salt.  She became cold, careless and disobedient.  She couldn't fully let go of what she was to leave behind.  I struggled with this.  Along with my feelings of grieving the past of what I left behind and the homesickness, conformity and compromise began to crowd in.  My faith that I thought was so strong began to erode.  I was beginning to move towards having a divided heart and from that came a lot of grief.  Enter, Jeremiah, the weeping part of Jeremiah.  I don't think I was ever able to fully understand "weeping" until I was the one doing this.  I felt so much loss, such a longing for what was behind me, but most of all such a deep sadness over my sin of my divided heart.  My spirit was in a state of anguish and I could barely stand myself.  As for the Job part, that was some understanding of his "ashes".  When Job sat among the ashes He began to see and repented.  Thankfully, Father showed me how to do the same.  As I sat among the dust and ashes, my Father was able to get me to focus only on Him.  He reminded me of His power, His sovereignty,  His strength in me.  As I was finally taking His strength, I knew it was the end of the path of this destructive storm I had been in.  He restored my joy in Him and pulled me from the ashes and I am rejoicing!

There is such beauty now in my newfound love relationship with Him.  The old way of thinking has disappeared.  There is absolutely nothing that I can add or take away to make His plan any greater, so I have humbly submitted my heart to His plan for me.  I am not questioning His purpose or looking back and wishing things were as before.  I am able to thank Him for blessing upon blessing in the past seasons of my life, and I am praising Him for this present season of blessing!  All the twists and turns threw me off balance and caused such painful stretching, but in the end I am able to embrace His will and proclaim that He is the Hero of this story!  HE IS FAITHFUL!

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Finding the vestibule of heaven


Moving across the ocean has forced me to take cover
in the shelter of the Most High.
I have taken refuge under His wings.
Walking in a foreign land has forced me
 to "live out" the words that have previously been before my eyes.
Up until this "uprooting", often it has been read and glean.
But, coming to China has changed all that.
I have a much larger dependence and an intense need for the "Living Word".

I have to "live" in Truth!  I have to make sure it's enveloped around me.
I have to meditate on it and ask for the faith to believe.
I have to desire it becomes alive in my spirit.
I have to ask for strength from Him.
I have to ask for His perspective,  His desires.
I have to purposefully look with supernatural vision amidst all
the physical distraction competing for my attention.

I know that the Holy Spirit has a strict watch over me.

He is Sovereign.  He has brought me here.
He has a right to do as He pleases with me.
I want to look beyond my temporary challenges to what God is doing.

I must be where God desires.
I am His, He is mine.
He is so gracious and His kindness showers me in His Fatherly way.
He is telling me that through all of the strain and stretching,
He has pledged Himself to make me all that I would love to be!



Thursday, October 10, 2013

Regular life on campus

It was a gorgeous fall day today in Beijing and as we were walking on campus,  I thought it would be fun to share the regular things about living here on The B.I.T. campus.

We have quite a few dining halls/restaurants on campus and we've been going to the staff dining
hall and the picture above is the reason.  Picture a medium mixing bowl full of noodles they are 
making when you order them.  Then add what you want from quite a few choices of vegetables, 
beans and meat.  The young man always laughs nicely when he sees us because we can tell him what we want in Chinese, but he knows if he asks anything else we have no idea what he is saying.  That bowl, by the way, sets us back 8 RMB, which is $1.31 U.S.  Today was special, three male teachers joined Glenn and I for lunch and we had fun getting to know one another.

You make friends with so many different people here.   Most Chinese people are very kind and they are very relational.  We go to the fruit and veggie market and they want to talk to us and when you keep going back to the same vendors they usually give you a free treat every now and then.  Today it was two small clementines.  Oranges and clementines are so good here!  Very, very juicy!

This evening after getting a few groceries and fruit at the market we went around the corner to a small vending area of street food.  There is a vendor with two young men that have a freezer full of frozen meat kabobs and a big open fire going with a grill top.  You pick, they cook it as spicy as you want it.  This sets us back 3 RMB (.50 U.S.) and it's so delicious!  Next to them is a noodle vendor.  They have two different refrigerators, one of meat and they other full of trays of different veggies.  You pick a basket and put all the meat and veggies you want in it.  You give this to the waiter, they weigh it, you pay and in a few minutes you have hot steamy noodles for about 18 RMB ($3).

One of the things I really like about China is all the vending on the streets.  Everyday there are all kinds of vendors mostly anywhere you go.  They are selling a variety of nuts, foods, phone cases, journals, clothes, socks, slippers and yummy drinks.  My favorite is a cold green tea that has such a good flavor.   It's fun to be able to make purchases without going in an actual store.

The little convenience store on campus is handy for our staples and a few sweets that are familiar comfort foods.  Tonite we picked up a few packs of mini donuts, bread and oreos.  The downside is they only sell bagged milk, which for us is great for cooking and not so much for drinking.   There also we can get any sewing done that we may need, copies made for Glenn's students, money put on our phones, and watch repairs done.

So to wrap up, I want to share something that hopefully will at least make you smile.  There is a very common saying in this country:  "It's China", meaning anything goes in China.  We laugh because it's true.  We see everyday things here that would definitely cause a second look, but here it doesn't attract any attention.  In China, it's so much about relationships and not appearance.  You can wear the same thing everyday and I really don't think it would be noticeable.  You do what is necessary here.  You have one bike and a family of three?  You all, in some way ride that bike. You meet someone and you are both hungry or it's time for a meal?  You go eat together and you'll get to know one another over that meal.  You like a striped shirt and a flowered skirt?  Wear them together, here it is not a faux pas.  And here is the smile (or laugh) part: You want to show your friends/family a squirrel you saw?  You put it in your fanny pack and take it to them on the subway!  Yep, anything goes in China and most of the time it doesn't even get a second look!









Monday, September 23, 2013

COMFORT TO COURAGE (by Andy Cheely)


Whether moving to China, teaching a new course, shopping in a market or building relationships with students, leaving comfort for courage makes us want to wrap our arms around every ounce of safety in our life. From the outside, leaving comfort and safety looks and sounds alluring and attractive, but the attraction fades quickly. 

Moving from comfort to courage will… cause us to question our decision. It will cause us to look around for the safety bars, seatbelt,  any kind of security button.

Moving from comfort to courage will… cause us to try to make something happen.  Scheme, make phone calls, send out hail mary e-mails—anything to distract from sitting in the fear.

Moving from comfort to courage will… cause us to doubt our abilities.  We will look at everything that we have failed at in the past … failed relationships, failed financial decisions, failed leadership calls—and we will wonder if we will repeat those patterns and if they are indicators to go out and look for comfort again.

Moving from comfort to courage will… cause us to doubt the author of the calling on our life.

Moving from comfort to courage will… cause us to be jealous of your supporters/teammates. They seem to be perfectly content with their lives.  We will wonder if we are some sort of crazy person that has a unhealthy propensity to live on the edge.

Moving from comfort to courage will… cause us to look for the easy way out.

Moving from comfort to courage will… cause us to feel weak in the knees—a good indicator that we should stop standing up and get ON our knees.

Moving from comfort to courage will… cause others to question us.  We will be misunderstood, questioned, and perhaps even seen as foolish.

As we've finished these first two months,  we remember to listen to Him tell us to settle down, to trust and to release every one of these fears into the everlasting arms. It is impossible to invite others into a life of obedience if we are unable to live it ourselves—so today we will be strong and courageous in Him.