1 Peter 4 says that Christ suffered "according to the will of God". For me, it's predominately the last 2 years that I've been able to better understand what God is after in His dealings with me, in my sufferings. Of course, at the time of what God was putting me through, I had no understanding of what God was doing and why He was allowing it. Do we ever? It has only been by His grace and my chasing after Him in chunks of solidarity....craving His voice... that I am able to know and understand why He has allowed certain suffering in my life. God has strengthened me as no other time in my life. He has supernaturally transformed me to more intentionally live for Him. He has made known His Lordship over my life and what His desires are for me and He has loved me so sweetly.
Hoping each day that I live with His divine perspective planted in my heart. I am basking in His love for me that He would do this in my life. I am so thankful that I am on the other side of those sufferings in some sense. I am so thankful that He chose me to be His bond-servant. it's the only true way to really live! Containing His Joy and having the honor of reflecting Him! He has taught me how to live with contentedness where I am... to view this life as saints that have gone before me and carrying a quiet longing for Him as I journey nearer to that time. I really DO love my Savior with all of my heart, mind and strength and I will serve Him all the days of my life. How could I not? He has given me peace that surpasses all understanding.
